A lot of people have asked me why I’ve been so quiet recently, and what’s been going on with me.
Truth be told, the last 2 months have been some of the most challenging of my life, and I need to get away for a while.
I’m tired of people trying to make their life look perfect on the internet so today I’ll share the raw, unedited version of what’s been going on.
It all started in January 2014 when, after having the most successful year of my life in 2013, I decided to step up and take on some even bigger projects.
I went all-in and before long I was working on 5 major projects at the same time.
By March 2014, I was…
-Running an accelerator program for up-and-coming entrepreneurs
-Co-organizing a big event in Colorado for top entrepreneurs
-Doing private coaching with clients from all over the world
-Organizing a major virtual conference
-Teaching a mindset reprogramming course
And if that wasn’t enough, when I wasn’t working I was going full beast mode doing Crossfit.
Everything was going well, and I was starting to feel truly superhuman…
… until something started to feel off.
Sometime in April, I started waking up every morning with a ball of anxiety in the pit of my stomach.
I didn’t know what was going on so I tried to ignore it. But it didn’t go away and things kept getting worse…
Soon I was feeling like I was trapped on a hamster wheel, running around all day trying to keep a million balls up in the air.
My normal upbeat, joyous self was starting to disappear, and I was transforming into a paranoid, overly anxious version of myself.
On the outside, it looked like I was living the dream.
But on the inside, I was falling apart…
Fast forward to early June.
I went to a spiritual ceremony in Boulder where, under the guidance of a shaman, we used a powerful psychedelic medicine called DMT.
I prayed to God beforehand to give me a clear sign of what I needed to change to get back on track.
Over the next hour, it all became very clear: simply put, I was on the highway to self-destruction.
In my quest to become superhuman, to build world-changing businesses, to be the best version of myself…
I was pushing myself WAY too hard, and I was destroying myself in the process.
I had developed my willpower and discipline to such a high level…
…that I was overriding my soul’s desires and burning myself out without realizing it.
Over the next few days, I spent a lot of time in the sensory deprivation tank to process the experience.
And it became super clear what I needed to do:
Take an extended break from all the madness so I could truly recovery, recalibrate and become myself again.
The only problem was… I still had about 6 weeks of work to do in order to honor all my commitments.
Deep down, I wanted so badly to just say “peace out world”, get on a plane and head off to a beach somewhere…
But I couldn’t. I had clients to serve, students to teach, projects to finish..
I’m super committed to my work and the people I serve (which is in part why I got myself in this predicament) so I decided to finish everything.
But it was incredibly hard.
Imagine being exhausted physically… yet still having to go to the gym twice a day to do killer workouts. That’s how I felt every day, except emotionally.
But at long last, I got it done. Last Monday was my last day of work.
And now, it’s time to say “Peace out world” for real – I’m heading to Peru tomorrow and taking at least 6 weeks completely off.
I have a knowingness that something truly magical will happen during this trip, and that I’ll never approach my work the same way afterwards.
I’m seeing some of the giant flaws in the world of entrepreneurship, productivity and personal development.
I know there’s an easier way to create value and beauty in the world.
I’m in the process of discovering it.
And to do so, I know I need to disconnect for a while.
So for the next 4 weeks, I’ll be travelling around Peru, and then I’ll be camping in the mountains of Colorado by myself for 2 weeks.
For the next 6 weeks, no computer, no cellphone, no Facebook, no email.
Just nature, peace and deep reflection.
I have a feeling the Phil who’s going to reemerge on the other side will be very different from the guy you know now.
And that’s exactly how it’s all meant to unfold.
See you on the other side,
PS I love you.