On Friday night, I had one of the craziest, most fascinating nights of my life.
I took part in an Ayahuasca ceremony with a shaman from Colombia. If you don’t know what Ayahuasca is, it’s a sacred medicinal plant that’s been used for thousands of years to heal emotional traumas and facilitate spiritual growth.
I went into the experience with a specific intention… but I could never have predicted what would happen next…
My intention was to learn how to further let go of attachment so I can create more peacefully and powerfully…
But the medicine had an entirely different plan for me.
She helped me see something that’s so pervasive and so tragic… But so common that we don’t even notice it anymore.
What’s that you ask?
Well, through this experience I saw very clearly just how much we have been conditioned by our parents, the education system and society to be a “good little boy/girl”.
To not bash against the walls too much, to avoid causing a ruckus and to fit nicely within what traditional society expects of us.
And in doing so, something horrible happened: we got stripped from our true essence.
We were tamed into a weaker, milder version of ourselves.
We got turned into a mere shell of who we are meant to be.
Now of course, I’m grateful for my parents/teachers for passing on great values to me while helping me become high-functioning person…
But let’s be honest here: there are SO MANY situations, from the most mundane to the most pivotal, where social conditioning stops us saying, doing and being what we really want.
I do it all the time myself…
I say what’s politically correct instead of what’s on my heart.
I do what’s polite instead of being spontaneous and free.
I choose to “play nice” instead of giving sharp feedback.
And now I realize how stupid that actually is.
Because when we do that… we compromise all areas of our life, from our relationships, to our work, our sex life and our lifestyle.
And that is one of the greatest tragedies of the human experience.
I’m not saying to be a sociopath and totally ignore social norms. Of course not. We should be mindful of others and have loving intentions.
But we absolutely SHOULD NOT repress the beautiful, unique, sacred being we are.
Even writing this post right now, I can feel myself wanting to dilute my message so I don’t upset anyone!
Well you know what? Fuck that.
I don’t want to be some middle of the road, plain vanilla “nice” guy.
I want to be me.
I want to be a force of nature.
Actually, I AM a fucking force of nature.
And above all, I want to be a force for LOVE.
But love isn’t all about playing nice, being polite and avoiding conflict.
Pure, unaltered love can sometimes be tough, challenging and contrarian.
It can come in the form of radical self-expression, vulnerability and spontaneity.
It’s a natural, primal, beautiful thing. And it shouldn’t be conditioned out of us.
Now I’m curious. What do you think? Where do you notice this phenomenon playing out? What are you doing to untangle your conditioning and liberate your primal self?
Comment below. Let’s have a conversation about it.
Because I don’t know about you, but I’m committed to stopping this madness.
I have way too much to offer to the world to repress it, turn it down and dilute it.
And I believe you do too.
So let’s be weird, let’s be crazy, and let’s have some fun making epic shit happen.
PS If you’re feeling called towards Ayahuasca, I believe it’s a wonderful tool. But you have to be ready. It’s an effective medicine but it’s not gentle. It will push you physically, mentally and emotionally. Oh, and it’s SO worth it.